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TILL Elizabeth entered the drawing-room at Netherfield and looked in
vain for Mr. Wickham among the cluster of red coats there assembled, a
doubt of his being present had never occurred to her. The certainty of
meeting him had not been checked by any of those recollections that
might not unreasonably have alarmed her. She had dressed with more
than usual care, and prepared in the highest spirits for the conquest of
all that remained unsubdued of his heart, trusting that it was not more
than might be won in the course of the evening. But in an instant arose
the dreadful suspicion of his being purposely omitted for Mr. Darcy's
pleasure in the Bingleys' invitation to the officers; and though this
was not exactly the case, the absolute fact of his absence was
pronounced by his friend Mr. Denny, to whom Lydia eagerly applied, and
who told them that Wickham had been obliged to go to town on business
the day before, and was not yet returned; adding, with a significant
smile,
``I do not imagine his business would have called him away just now, if
he had not wished to avoid a certain gentleman here.''
This part of his intelligence, though unheard by Lydia, was caught by
Elizabeth, and as it assured her that Darcy was not less answerable
for Wickham's absence than if her first surmise had been just, every
feeling of displeasure against the former was so sharpened by
immediate disappointment, that she could hardly reply with tolerable
civility to the polite inquiries which he directly afterwards approached
to make. -- Attention, forbearance, patience with Darcy, was injury
to Wickham. She was resolved against any sort of conversation with him,
and turned away with a degree of ill humour, which she could not wholly
surmount even in speaking to Mr. Bingley, whose blind partiality
provoked her.
But Elizabeth was not formed for ill-humour; and though every
prospect of her own was destroyed for the evening, it could not dwell
long on her spirits; and having told all her griefs to Charlotte Lucas,
whom she had not seen for a week, she was soon able to make a voluntary
transition to the oddities of her cousin, and to point him out to her
particular notice. The two first dances, however, brought a return of
distress; they were dances of mortification. Mr. Collins, awkward and
solemn, apologising instead of attending, and often moving wrong without
being aware of it, gave her all the shame and misery which a
disagreeable partner for a couple of dances can give. The moment of
her release from him was exstacy.
She danced next with an officer, and had the refreshment of talking
of Wickham, and of hearing that he was universally liked. When those
dances were over she returned to Charlotte Lucas, and was in
conversation with her, when she found herself suddenly addressed by Mr.
Darcy, who took her so much by surprise in his application for her
hand, that, without knowing what she did, she accepted him. He walked
away again immediately, and she was left to fret over her own want of
presence of mind; Charlotte tried to console her.
``I dare say you will find him very agreeable.''
``Heaven forbid! -- That would be the greatest misfortune of all! -- To
find a man agreeable whom one is determined to hate! -- Do not wish
me such an evil.''
When the dancing recommenced, however, and Darcy approached to claim
her hand, Charlotte could not help cautioning her, in a whisper, not
to be a simpleton, and allow her fancy for Wickham to make her appear
unpleasant in the eyes of a man of ten times his consequence.
Elizabeth made no answer, and took her place in the set, amazed at the
dignity to which she was arrived in being allowed to stand opposite to
Mr. Darcy, and reading in her neighbours' looks their equal amazement in
beholding it. They stood for some time without speaking a word; and she
began to imagine that their silence was to last through the two dances,
and at first was resolved not to break it; till suddenly fancying
that it would be the greater punishment to her partner to oblige him
to talk, she made some slight observation on the dance. He replied,
and was again silent. After a pause of some minutes, she addressed him a
second time with:
``It is your turn to say something now, Mr. Darcy. -- I talked about
the dance, and you ought to make some kind of remark on the size of
the room, or the number of couples.''
He smiled, and assured her that whatever she wished him to say should
be said.
``Very well. -- That reply will do for the present. -- Perhaps by and
by I may observe that private balls are much pleasanter than public
ones. -- But now we may be silent.''
``Do you talk by rule then, while you are dancing?''
``Sometimes. One must speak a little, you know. It would look odd to be
entirely silent for half an hour together, and yet for the advantage of
some, conversation ought to be so arranged as that they may have the
trouble of saying as little as as possible.''
``Are you consulting your own feelings in the present case, or do you
imagine that you are gratifying mine?''
``Both,'' replied Elizabeth archly; ``for I have always seen a great
similarity in the turn of our minds. -- We are each of an unsocial,
taciturn disposition, unwilling to speak, unless we expect to say
something that will amaze the whole room, and be handed down to
posterity with all the eclat of a proverb.''
``This is no very striking resemblance of your own character, I am
sure,'' said he. ``How near it may be to mine, I cannot pretend to say.
-- You think it a faithful portrait undoubtedly.''
``I must not decide on my own performance.''
He made no answer, and they were again silent till they had gone down
the dance, when he asked her if she and her sisters did not very often
walk to Meryton. She answered in the affirmative, and, unable to
resist the temptation, added, ``When you met us there the other day,
we had just been forming a new acquaintance.''
The effect was immediate. A deeper shade of hauteur overspread his
features, but he said not a word, and Elizabeth, though blaming
herself for her own weakness, could not go on. At length Darcy spoke,
and in a constrained manner said,
``Mr. Wickham is blessed with such happy manners as may ensure his
making friends -- whether he may be equally capable of retaining them,
is less certain.''
``He has been so unlucky as to lose your friendship,'' replied
Elizabeth with emphasis, ``and in a manner which he is likely to
suffer from all his life.''
Darcy made no answer, and seemed desirous of changing the subject. At
that moment Sir William Lucas appeared close to them, meaning to pass
through the set to the other side of the room; but on perceiving Mr.
Darcy he stopt with a bow of superior courtesy, to compliment him on his
dancing and his partner.
``I have been most highly gratified indeed, my dear Sir. Such very
superior dancing is not often seen. It is evident that you belong to the
first circles. Allow me to say, however, that your fair partner does
not disgrace you, and that I must hope to have this pleasure often
repeated, especially when a certain desirable event, my dear Miss
Eliza (glancing at her sister and Bingley), shall take place. What
congratulations will then flow in! I appeal to Mr. Darcy: -- but let
me not interrupt you, Sir. -- You will not thank me for detaining you
from the bewitching converse of that young lady, whose bright eyes are
also upbraiding me.''
The latter part of this address was scarcely, heard by Darcy; but Sir
William's allusion to his friend seemed to strike him forcibly, and
his eyes were directed with a very serious expression towards Bingley
and Jane, who were dancing together. Recovering himself, however,
shortly, he turned to his partner, and said,
``Sir William's interruption has made me forget what we were talking
of.''
``I do not think we were speaking at all. Sir William could not have
interrupted any two people in the room who had less to say for
themselves. -- We have tried two or three subjects already without
success, and what we are to talk of next I cannot imagine.''
``What think you of books?'' said he, smiling.
``Books -- Oh! no. -- I am sure we never read the same, or not with the
same feelings.''
``I am sorry you think so; but if that be the case, there can at
least be no want of subject. -- We may compare our different opinions.''
``No -- I cannot talk of books in a ball-room; my head is always full
of something else.''
``The present always occupies you in such scenes -- does it?'' said he,
with a look of doubt.
``Yes, always,'' she replied, without knowing what she said, for her
thoughts had wandered far from the subject, as soon afterwards
appeared by her suddenly exclaiming,
``I remember hearing you once say, Mr. Darcy, that you hardly ever
forgave, that your resentment once created was unappeasable. You are
very cautious, I suppose, as to its being created.''
``I am,'' said he, with a firm voice.
``And never allow yourself to be blinded by prejudice?''
``I hope not.''
``It is particularly incumbent on those who never change their opinion,
to be secure of judging properly at first.''
``May I ask to what these questions tend?''
``Merely to the illustration of your character,'' said she,
endeavouring to shake off her gravity. ``I am trying to make it out.''
``And what is your success?''
She shook her head. ``I do not get on at all. I hear such different
accounts of you as puzzle me exceedingly.''
``I can readily believe,'' answered he gravely, ``that report may
vary greatly with respect to me; and I could wish, Miss Bennet, that you
were not to sketch my character at the present moment, as there is
reason to fear that the performance would reflect no credit on either.''
``But if I do not take your likeness now, I may never have another
opportunity.''
``I would by no means suspend any pleasure of yours,'' he coldly
replied. She said no more, and they went down the other dance and parted
in silence; on each side dissatisfied, though not to an equal degree,
for in Darcy's breast there was a tolerable powerful feeling towards
her, which soon procured her pardon, and directed all his anger
against another.
They had not long separated when Miss Bingley came towards her, and
with an expression of civil disdain thus accosted her,
``So, Miss Eliza, I hear you are quite delighted with George Wickham!
-- Your sister has been talking to me about him, and asking me a
thousand questions; and I find that the young man forgot to tell you,
among his other communications, that he was the son of old Wickham,
the late Mr. Darcy's steward. Let me recommend you, however, as a
friend, not to give implicit confidence to all his assertions; for as to
Mr. Darcy's using him ill, it is perfectly false; for, on the contrary,
he has been always remarkably kind to him, though George Wickham has
treated Mr. Darcy, in a most infamous manner. I do not know the
particulars, but I know very well that Mr. Darcy is not in the least
to blame, that he cannot bear to hear George Wickham mentioned, and that
though my brother thought he could not well avoid including him in
his invitation to the officers, he was excessively glad to find that
he had taken himself out of the way. His coming into the country at all,
is a most insolent thing indeed, and I wonder how he could presume to
do it. I pity you, Miss Eliza, for this discovery of your favorite's
guilt; but really, considering his descent one could not expect much
better.''
``His guilt and his descent appear by your account to be the same,''
said Elizabeth angrily; ``for I have heard you accuse him of nothing
worse than of being the son of Mr. Darcy's steward, and of that, I can
assure you, he informed me himself.''
``I beg your pardon,'' replied Miss Bingley, turning away with a sneer.
``Excuse my interference. -- It was kindly meant.''
``Insolent girl!'' said Elizabeth to herself. -- ``You are much
mistaken if you expect to influence me by such a paltry attack as this.
I see nothing in it but your own wilful ignorance and the malice of Mr.
Darcy.'' She then sought her eldest sister, who had undertaken to
make inquiries on the same subject of Bingley. Jane met her with a smile
of such sweet complacency, a glow of such happy expression, as
sufficiently marked how well she was satisfied with the occurrences of
the evening. -- Elizabeth instantly read her feelings, and at that
moment solicitude for Wickham, resentment against his enemies and
every thing else gave way before the hope of Jane's being in the fairest
way for happiness.
``I want to know,'' said she, with a countenance no less smiling than
her sister's, ``what you have learnt about Mr. Wickham. But perhaps
you have been too pleasantly engaged to think of any third person, in
which case you may be sure of my pardon.''
``No,'' replied Jane, ``I have not forgotten him; but I have nothing
satisfactory to tell you. Mr. Bingley does not know the whole of his
history, and is quite ignorant of the circumstances which have
principally offended Mr. Darcy; but he will vouch for the good conduct,
the probity and honour of his friend, and is perfectly convinced that
Mr. Wickham has deserved much less attention from Mr. Darcy than he
has received; and I am sorry to say that by his account as well as his
sister's, Mr. Wickham is by no means a respectable young man. I am
afraid he has been very imprudent, and has deserved to lose Mr.
Darcy's regard.''
``Mr. Bingley does not know Mr. Wickham himself?''
``No; he never saw him till the other morning at Meryton.''
``This account then is what he has received from Mr. Darcy. I am
perfectly satisfied. But what does he say of the living?''
``He does not exactly recollect the circumstances, though he has
heard them from Mr. Darcy more than once, but he believes that it was
left to him conditionally only.''
``I have not a doubt of Mr. Bingley's sincerity,'' said Elizabeth
warmly; ``but you must excuse my not being convinced by assurances only.
Mr. Bingley's defence of his friend was a very able one I dare say, but
since he is unacquainted with several parts of the story, and has
learnt the rest from that friend himself, I shall venture still to think
of both gentlemen as I did before.''
She then changed the discourse to one more gratifying to each, and on
which there could be no difference of sentiment. Elizabeth listened with
delight to the happy, though modest hopes which Jane entertained of
Bingley's regard, and said all in her power to heighten her confidence
in it. On their being joined by Mr. Bingley himself, Elizabeth
withdrew to Miss Lucas; to whose inquiry after the pleasantness of her
last partner she had scarcely replied, before Mr. Collins came up to
them and told her with great exultation that he had just been so
fortunate as to make a most important discovery.
``I have found out,'' said he, ``by a singular accident, that there
is now in the room a near relation of my patroness. I happened to
overhear the gentleman himself mentioning to the young lady who does the
honours of this house the names of his cousin Miss de Bourgh, and of
her mother Lady Catherine. How wonderfully these sort of things occur!
Who would have thought of my meeting with -- perhaps -- a nephew of Lady
Catherine de Bourgh in this assembly! -- I am most thankful that the
discovery is made in time for me to pay my respects to him, which I am
now going to do, and trust he will excuse my not having done it before.
My total ignorance of the connection must plead my apology.''
``You are not going to introduce yourself to Mr. Darcy?''
``Indeed I am. I shall intreat his pardon for not having done it
earlier. I believe him to be Lady Catherine's nephew. It will be in my
power to assure him that her ladyship was quite well yesterday
se'nnight.''
Elizabeth tried hard to dissuade him from such a scheme; assuring him
that Mr. Darcy would consider his addressing him without introduction as
an impertinent freedom, rather than a compliment to his aunt; that it
was not in the least necessary there should be any notice on either
side, and that if it were, it must belong to Mr. Darcy, the superior
in consequence, to begin the acquaintance. -- Mr. Collins listened to
her with the determined air of following his own inclination and when
she ceased speaking, replied thus,
``My dear Miss Elizabeth, I have the highest opinion in the world of
your excellent judgment in all matters within the scope of your
understanding, but permit me to say that there must be a wide difference
between the established forms of ceremony amongst the laity, and
those which regulate the clergy; for give me leave to observe that I
consider the clerical office as equal in point of dignity with the
highest rank in the kingdom -- provided that a proper humility of
behaviour is at the same time maintained. You must therefore allow me to
follow the dictates of my conscience on this occasion, which leads me
to perform what I look on as a point of duty. Pardon me for neglecting
to profit by your advice, which on every other subject shall be my
constant guide, though in the case before us I consider myself more
fitted by education and habitual study to decide on what is right than a
young lady like yourself.'' And with a low bow he left her to attack
Mr. Darcy, whose reception of his advances she eagerly watched, and
whose astonishment at being so addressed was very evident. Her cousin
prefaced his speech with a solemn bow, and though she could not hear a
word of it, she felt as if hearing it all, and saw in the motion of
his lips the words ``apology,'' ``Hunsford,'' and ``Lady Catherine de
Bourgh.'' -- It vexed her to see him expose himself to such a man. Mr.
Darcy was eyeing him with unrestrained wonder, and when at last Mr.
Collins allowed him time to speak, replied with an air of distant
civility. Mr. Collins, however, was not discouraged from speaking again,
and Mr. Darcy's contempt seemed abundantly increasing with the length
of his second speech, and at the end of it he only made him a slight
bow, and moved another way. Mr. Collins then returned to Elizabeth.
``I have no reason, I assure you,'' said he, ``to be dissatisfied
with my reception. Mr. Darcy seemed much pleased with the attention.
He answered me with the utmost civility, and even paid me the compliment
of saying that he was so well convinced of Lady Catherine's discernment
as to be certain she could never bestow a favour unworthily. It was
really a very handsome thought. Upon the whole, I am much pleased with
him.''
As Elizabeth had no longer any interest of her own to pursue, she
turned her attention almost entirely on her sister and Mr. Bingley,
and the train of agreeable reflections which her observations gave birth
to, made her perhaps almost as happy as Jane. She saw her, in idea,
settled in that very house, in all the felicity which a marriage of true
affection could bestow; and she felt capable, under such circumstances,
of endeavouring even to like Bingley's two sisters. Her mother's
thoughts she plainly saw were bent the same way, and she determined
not to venture near her, lest she might hear too much. When they sat
down to supper, therefore, she considered it a most unlucky perverseness
which placed them within one of each other; and deeply was she vexed to
find that her mother was talking to that one person (Lady Lucas)
freely, openly, and of nothing else but of her expectation that Jane
would be soon married to Mr. Bingley. -- It was an animating subject,
and Mrs. Bennet seemed incapable of fatigue while enumerating the
advantages of the match. His being such a charming young man, and so
rich, and living but three miles from them, were the first points of
self-gratulation; and then it was such a comfort to think how fond the
two sisters were of Jane, and to be certain that they must desire the
connection as much as she could do. It was, moreover, such a promising
thing for her younger daughters, as Jane's marrying so greatly must
throw them in the way of other rich men; and lastly, it was so
pleasant at her time of life to be able to consign her single
daughters to the care of their sister, that she might not be obliged
to go into company more than she liked. It was necessary to make this
circumstance a matter of pleasure, because on such occasions it is the
etiquette, but no one was less likely than Mrs. Bennet to find comfort
in staying at home at any period of her life. She concluded with many
good wishes that Lady Lucas might soon be equally fortunate, though
evidently and triumphantly believing there was no chance of it.
In vain did Elizabeth endeavour to check the rapidity of her mother's
words, or persuade her to describe her felicity in a less audible
whisper; for to her inexpressible vexation, she could perceive that
the chief of it was overheard by Mr. Darcy, who sat opposite to them.
Her mother only scolded her for being nonsensical.
``What is Mr. Darcy to me, pray, that I should be afraid of him? I am
sure we owe him no such particular civility as to be obliged to say
nothing he may not like to hear.''
``For heaven's sake, madam, speak lower. -- What advantage can it be to
you to offend Mr. Darcy? -- You will never recommend yourself to his
friend by so doing.''
Nothing that she could say, however, had any influence. Her mother
would talk of her views in the same intelligible tone. Elizabeth blushed
and blushed again with shame and vexation. She could not help
frequently glancing her eye at Mr. Darcy, though every glance
convinced her of what she dreaded; for though he was not always
looking at her mother, she was convinced that his attention was
invariably fixed by her. The expression of his face changed gradually
from indignant contempt to a composed and steady gravity.
At length however Mrs. Bennet had no more to say; and Lady Lucas, who
had been long yawning at the repetition of delights which she saw no
likelihood of sharing, was left to the comforts of cold ham and chicken.
Elizabeth now began to revive. But not long was the interval of
tranquillity; for when supper was over, singing was talked of, and she
had the mortification of seeing Mary, after very little entreaty,
preparing to oblige the company. By many significant looks and silent
entreaties, did she endeavour to prevent such a proof of complaisance,
-- but in vain; Mary would not understand them; such an opportunity of
exhibiting was delightful to her, and she began her song. Elizabeth's
eyes were fixed on her with most painful sensations; and she watched her
progress through the several stanzas with an impatience which was
very ill rewarded at their close; for Mary, on receiving amongst the
thanks of the table, the hint of a hope that she might be prevailed on
to favour them again, after the pause of half a minute began another.
Mary's powers were by no means fitted for such a display; her voice
was weak, and her manner affected. -- Elizabeth was in agonies. She
looked at Jane, to see how she bore it; but Jane was very composedly
talking to Bingley. She looked at his two sisters, and saw them making
signs of derision at each other, and at Darcy, who continued however
impenetrably grave. She looked at her father to entreat his
interference, lest Mary should be singing all night. He took the hint,
and when Mary had finished her second song, said aloud,
``That will do extremely well, child. You have delighted us long
enough. Let the other young ladies have time to exhibit.''
Mary, though pretending not to hear, was somewhat disconcerted; and
Elizabeth sorry for her, and sorry for her father's speech, was afraid
her anxiety had done no good. -- Others of the party were now applied
to.
``If I,'' said Mr. Collins, ``were so fortunate as to be able to sing,
I should have great pleasure, I am sure, in obliging the company with
an air; for I consider music as a very innocent diversion, and perfectly
compatible with the profession of a clergyman. -- I do not mean however
to assert that we can be justified in devoting too much of our time
to music, for there are certainly other things to be attended to. The
rector of a parish has much to do. -- In the first place, he must make
such an agreement for tithes as may be beneficial to himself and not
offensive to his patron. He must write his own sermons; and the time
that remains will not be too much for his parish duties, and the care
and improvement of his dwelling, which he cannot be excused from
making as comfortable as possible. And I do not think it of light
importance that he should have attentive and conciliatory manners
towards every body, especially towards those to whom he owes his
preferment. I cannot acquit him of that duty; nor could I think well
of the man who should omit an occasion of testifying his respect towards
any body connected with the family.'' And with a bow to Mr. Darcy, he
concluded his speech, which had been spoken so loud as to be heard by
half the room. -- Many stared. -- Many smiled; but no one looked more
amused than Mr. Bennet himself, while his wife seriously commended Mr.
Collins for having spoken so sensibly, and observed in a half-whisper to
Lady Lucas, that he was a remarkably clever, good kind of young man.
To Elizabeth it appeared, that had her family made an agreement to
expose themselves as much as they could during the evening, it would
have been impossible for them to play their parts with more spirit, or
finer success; and happy did she think it for Bingley and her sister
that some of the exhibition had escaped his notice, and that his
feelings were not of a sort to be much distressed by the folly which
he must have witnessed. That his two sisters and Mr. Darcy, however,
should have such an opportunity of ridiculing her relations was bad
enough, and she could not determine whether the silent contempt of the
gentleman, or the insolent smiles of the ladies, were more intolerable.
The rest of the evening brought her little amusement. She was teazed by
Mr. Collins, who continued most perseveringly by her side, and though
he could not prevail with her to dance with him again, put it out of her
power to dance with others. In vain did she entreat him to stand up
with somebody else, and offer to introduce him to any young lady in
the room. He assured her that as to dancing, he was perfectly
indifferent to it; that his chief object was by delicate attentions to
recommend himself to her, and that he should therefore make a point of
remaining close to her the whole evening. There was no arguing upon such
a project. She owed her greatest relief to her friend Miss Lucas, who
often joined them, and good-naturedly engaged Mr. Collins's conversation
to herself.
She was at least free from the offence of Mr. Darcy's farther notice;
though often standing within a very short distance of her, quite
disengaged, he never came near enough to speak. She felt it to be the
probable consequence of her allusions to Mr. Wickham, and rejoiced in
it.
The Longbourn party were the last of all the company to depart; and
by a manoeuvre of Mrs. Bennet, had to wait for their carriages a quarter
of an hour after every body else was gone, which gave them time to
see how heartily they were wished away by some of the family. Mrs. Hurst
and her sister scarcely opened their mouths except to complain of
fatigue, and were evidently impatient to have the house to themselves.
They repulsed every attempt of Mrs. Bennet at conversation, and by so
doing, threw a languor over the whole party, which was very little
relieved by the long speeches of Mr. Collins, who was complimenting Mr.
Bingley and his sisters on the elegance of their entertainment, and the
hospitality and politeness which had marked their behaviour to their
guests. Darcy said nothing at all. Mr. Bennet, in equal silence, was
enjoying the scene. Mr. Bingley and Jane were standing together, a
little detached from the rest, and talked only to each other.
Elizabeth preserved as steady a silence as either Mrs. Hurst or Miss
Bingley; and even Lydia was too much fatigued to utter more than the
occasional exclamation of ``Lord how tired I am!'' accompanied by a
violent yawn.
When at length they arose to take leave, Mrs. Bennet was most
pressingly civil in her hope of seeing the whole family soon at
Longbourn; and addressed herself particularly to Mr. Bingley, to
assure him how happy he would make them by eating a family dinner with
them at any time, without the ceremony of a formal invitation. Bingley
was all grateful pleasure, and he readily engaged for taking the
earliest opportunity of waiting on her, after his return from London,
whither he was obliged to go the next day for a short time.
Mrs. Bennet was perfectly satisfied; and quitted the house under the
delightful persuasion that, allowing for the necessary preparations of
settlements, new carriages, and wedding clothes, she should
undoubtedly see her daughter settled at Netherfield in the course of
three or four months. Of having another daughter married to Mr. Collins,
she thought with equal certainty, and with considerable, though not
equal, pleasure. Elizabeth was the least dear to her of all her
children; and though the man and the match were quite good enough for
her, the worth of each was eclipsed by Mr. Bingley and Netherfield.
--
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